It's hard thinking of things to write and making it interesting. I like to write interesting posts every now and then rather than really boring posts everyday. This post may be interesting for some but feel free not to read it if you're not interested in 'Steiner education'.

School went back today, it was a bit weird getting up at 6.30am rather than 10-10.30am. My holidays were well spent relaxing and catching up with people.Going to bed at a reasonable time is also a struggle. It doesn't help that the time differences are so annoying now and basically doesn't work out at all with Australia - it's very tricky finding the time to talk to people at home.

I have to keep reminding myself that because I am in Germany it does not mean I am on holidays all the time. I would love to spend the time visiting new places, taking nice photos and meeting new people but unfortunately school and homework are in the way. Instead of taking maybe an hour doing homework it takes me 3 because my procrastination has become very bad. It is not that I don't understand it but I am just not interested and, of course, looking up words that I am unsure of takes a lot of time and effort.

I am starting to lose all my creative skills that I formed at Orana over the nine years that I was there. It's something that is really lacking at this school, and I find it sad. Its something completely normal for them and it was normal for me to write my own work book with pictures and colours every morning for nine years and then bring it home and spend more time working on it. Those books are precious and it is hard to part with them so you store them in a box until you move out. What happens here I wonder? Everything gets drilled into them with endless pieces of paper and tests, then at the end of the year all the pieces of paper get chucked out.

I never believed it when the teachers at Orana said "make your books beautiful, you will come back to them later in your life". That is 100 per cent true: its so nice to start from the class one books and flick through them watching your handwriting and the use of colours and crayons change.

To put it straight forwardly, I miss Orana but the time has come to move on and now I know that it doesn't just take a few days. The things like being outside for most of the day, going to singing every morning, talking to the teachers about things that aren't even about school - you don't realize how important they are until you don't have them anymore,everything just goes.

I guess being at this school is not only extremely different but it is also hard on me. It's impossible to be myself because most people are complete strangers and you see new people everyday. There is no sense of 'family' or even 'community'. School is where you go and learn, nothing more (I do not agree). It is also frustrating with the language because I can't say what I would like to say, only what I am able to say. I am hoping this will improve over the time (which I'm sure it will).

If anyone has any interesting ideas on what would be interesting to write about or what they would like to see in this blog, comment below or message me :)